Well, hello again! It's been over a month since my last post and I've been working every single day to get to a point where I could write! After I left you last time, we were a few days into November! Now we're a few days into December and the past month has been a blur of BUSY! (For you as well, I'm sure!) While it seems like every single year once Halloween passes that life just speeds up with all the Holiday happenings and then you blink and it's January! So I would not expect it any other away, honestly!
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| Thanksgiving 2017 |
This year after Halloween my life was even more busy than it ever has been before. Going to school full time has taken such a substantial amount of my time, so on top of all of my normal yearly "mom" obligations (Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving break when all 4 kids were home, planning/hosting my youngest, Jonas's, 2nd Birthday party, decorating the house for Christmas, buying/wrapping Christmas presents...and obviously you can't forget to include any normal task like laundry, cleaning, groceries, cooking, and keeping 4 tiny humans alive..😆) This year everything I normally breeze through was magnified due to all of my school work. I knew my first semester into college would be an adjustment, but at point I thought taking Chemistry and Algebra both in my first semester back to school in 10 years would be a GOOD idea, I am not sure!! There were actual points throughout the past month when I had to remind myself that you can't utilize every single hour in a 24 hour period, you have to sleep at some point, you have to stop to eat at some point, and someone always needs something you have to provide!
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| Mickey Mouse Party! |
Without a strong background in time management, I'm completely certain I would have fallen on my face by now. But this past Saturday night after Jonas's 2nd Mickey Mouse Birthday party was all done. ( Party planning is my passion, I love hosting, decorating, and planning for a party all to watch it come to fruition! So party days are always a good day, and feeling the reward of having a successful party is a huge blessing!) So, I was back home with family who had came in from out of town to help us celebrate, and it was then that I realized that us mom's are more capable of ruling the world than we give ourselves credit for! I knew I had to spend the next day, Sunday, completely studying for both a Chemistry and Algebra test the next day, because with all of the party stuff that week I hadn't even cracked a book yet. No big deal, just get it done!
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| Our boy is TWO! |
Sunday afternoon was gorgeous here in Texas, so all 4 kids went outside and I opened my books. And within 30 minutes I was bawling on my husbands chest because I didn't feel strong enough, or capable enough, or smart enough to accurately learn all of this in one afternoon and I was smack dab in the middle of an anxiety attack. (I'm a perfectionist about most things, so luckily I'm pretty used to these and know how to self cope to get it back together after years and years of practice!) Taking my mind off it wasn't the answer, but getting stuff done was. I had to boost my own confidence by reminding myself HOW much we are really capable of when we put our mind and heart into something! It's the last tests before the final exams and I had ALMOST made it. I couldn't quit now.
Monday morning rolled around and I was home completely alone right before my algebra test. Our house is LITERALLY never quiet unless I'm home alone. So I was sitting and enjoying it when I realized that I had been go, go, going for SO long that I hadn't stopped to just truly rest for so long. It was no wonder my brain was a blur, and I was having to remind myself to even breathe and sleep. I felt confident after my test, and picked up the kids from school and came home to study for my chemistry one that night. I had a million other things I needed/wanted to be doing instead of studying. But again, I couldn't quit now. So off I went. By the time I got home that night I was done. Mentally, physically, done! I'm to the point of school that I have 3 final exams left and I am done with the semester. The kids were all asleep and a cold front was moving in last night, so I wasn't looking forward to getting out in the cold and from being so drained I really just wanted to STOP.
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| Rest and breathing treatments! |
Well, Destiny had been coughing somewhat that afternoon and when putting her to bed last night Andy was still noticing her breathing. Her asthma can go from great to hospitalized so quickly, that I knew right away getting out in the sudden cold air change today would do her no good. So I decided then to keep her home from preschool and let her rest and do breathing treatments to get ahead of it all. And then I realized, that by stopping, it gave me a day to JUST BREATHE as well! No obligations, no school work (for today at least!), not leaving the house for anything. Just time. Time to rest, recoup, and breathe and working on Destiny's actual breathing. I realized really quickly this morning that this had been what was missing from my past month of craziness, I should have built in time to rest, I should have built in time to do nothing, to breathe and relax!
No matter how strong we are, no matter how many tasks we knock out, or how much we have on our plates, we are NO good to anyone if we're not "breathing". I feel like I've told myself this before, but then life gets busy and I forget. Maybe it took something like Destiny's mild asthma issues to stop me in my tracks, but I'm thankful to be stopped. I'm thankful to have time today to reflect, rest, and watch some reality TV! I hope you can find time in your crazy Holiday schedules to enjoy things, and to keep yourself built up by taking some breaths for yourself every now and then! Until next time, enjoy the rest of your week!!
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